You just never know
You just never know.
Meditations on exploration and the beauty of being lost, and finding again.

As much as you think — “it will go this way” — it just might not.
And that way that it does go, it seems, just might be the way that it is meant to be. There are paths, that we think we are on, but then again, we might be on another path altogether, that takes a while for us to see, in the midst — and the mist — of our travels, where we are going.

In finding myself exploring at the edge of civilization, sometimes — and I mean that in a couple of ways — I find myself being “lost”. Sometimes, working, you might think that you are actually not “civilized”, but merely working hard at the edge of it. Sure, civil — but really, is this civilization?
And there might be other times, that you are out there far enough, high enough, remote enough, that you realize, just for a moment, that you don’t recognize things — you are, in a moment, another world.
That could be:
A instant of unexpected silence.
A turn in the trail, that is unexpected or forgotten.
An instant, when the known suddenly has become: the unknown.
When the Raven calls, and you think he’s calling you.
It’s like: “I’m not sure where I am”.

And I believe, in a way, that those moments are really important — for each of us, in our own ways. I mean, it’s important to be lost to the degree that you’re wondering: “where I am, anyway?” That question, of course, should be asked. And then, explored.
I think it’s crucial for each of us to be lost for a minute, an hour, a day, or two, in our passages as human beings. And coming around the sun, one more time for each of you, it’s a good thing to consider: it’s okay to be lost. Because the only way you can be exploring anything is that if you are lost. If you’ve found it, then what are you doing?
Tonight, walking for what seemed a very long time, in the cold night of Moroccan air, wind blowing, winter chill, all around — as I was looking in circumspect — I thought, I’m not sure that I know where I am. But I like it. So, being calm in being lost — being in that state of un-navigated exploration, it’s a good thing. You can be lost, because you always must be exploring. Even an experienced navigator is only guessing — estimating with some certainty — about where they are; it’s all based on what’s available to create that sense of placement. But, with a little mist, that selfsame expert might not have a clue.

In the High Atlas, the range of mountains that is several hours from Marrakech. Balancing this group of stones, overlooking a village that only recently got its electric power, that was completely washed out in a mudslide, whole families vanishing — only several years ago — I recalled: that you just never know.
Things come, things go. In every thing.
You think that you’ve created something that’s pretty balanced, but then again, it might fall over in the next ten minutes, or ten years later.
It is best to savor that moment of relished equality — and to know, well…this is nice, but it just might be for a moment or two.
Better to not worry about that. Just be in it.
Everything changes, so it’s better to be moving onwards, being out there — look, but don’t stare, and stride onwards. It’s good to ponder these things — (or, better said, this has been my line of meditation today.)
That:
– now is the time of exploration — whether inside one’s self or in the perimeter, it’s good to be out there, investigating*, looking for trails.
– now: out there could be a moment’s meditation, something that is just outside the familiar, within your self, or merely several feet away. Or, it could be 48 hours of travel away…
– now there are things to be discovered — in each of us, for each of us, in sharing with each other.
– now we’re on a track, we’re looking for something that we might’ve left behind; it’s recalling what might have been forgotten, something that is a thread, a vestige, in you.
– now, there are still places on the earth, that no matter how hard the modern world tries to come into them, there are wild spots underfoot, where the unfamiliar reign, and you can be easily lost.
– and that now, it’s important to realize that life is all about that idea of trying to find that thread, that note, from which it (you) all began in your own heart.
– and finally now, when you are lost, all you have to do is find your self again.
What about that, that idea — anyway (literally, anyway… wherever you might be going!)?
What I’m contemplating, in this time of change for us all — in particular, coming round the bend, yet again, that it’s always good to think of your self as a perpetual explorer. And I believe, for each of us, that this presence is already well in play.
But being here, late at night, some glimmer before midnight — and thinking about what I might offer, that’s less than the usual Girvin mysticism — is the real of being here, and finding that beauty in just realizing, and being comfortable in, being lost — knowing that change and exploration are pretty much the way that they need to be, and that things will — in all likelihood — not necessarily come out precisely like you’d hoped, but they will come out.
And there you go.

*explore | c.1450 (implied in explorator), “to investigate, examine,” from L. explorare “investigate, search out,” said to be originally a hunters’ term meaning “set up a loud cry,” from ex- “out” + plorare “to cry.” But second element also explained as “to make to flow,” from pluere “to flow.” Meaning “to go to a country or place in quest of discoveries” is first attested c.1616.
discover | c.1300, from O.Fr. descovrir, from L.L. discooperire, from L. dis- “opposite of” + cooperire “to cover up.”
investigate | 1436, from L. investigationem (nom. investigatio) “a searching into,” from investigatus, pp. of investigare, from in- “in” + vestigare “to track, trace,” from vestigium “footprint, track”. Investigate is c.1510 back-formation.
vestige | 1602, from Fr. vestige “a mark, trace, sign,” from L. vestigium “footprint, trace,” of unknown origin.
Dedicated to the celebration of my father’s and my brother’s birthdays, both explorers in their own right.
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tsg | the atlas mountains | morocco
the last picture I took…
…was of this magician and healer, likely Tuareg, and surely from the Sahara. I took this picture, then tried to get closer to another healer | storyteller type, and the camera was knocked down to the brickwork in an ancient courtyard or jemaa — in the jostling crowd — and she never woke up again. And I surely tried many techniques, trying to wake her up.

While there’s no pronouncement against taking pictures, some people simply don’t like it. And they’ll tell you so. Or, they’ll glare, which is, clearly, telling you so. If someone didn’t want a picture taken, even with the snap-lightning techniques I’d developed, they’d do something like this:

And of course, I wouldn’t take the picture. Except in this instance, I already had — speaking of lightning.
Personally, my reaches are more to the moment; I’m not trying to set people up, play them, con them or abuse them — even pay them, (though I did have to do that), or finally, in any manner, bother them, in their workaday world. But the imagery is simply unrelentingly astonishing — the colors, the character, the timeless quality of the people. What you see is what you get. And if you see, you cannot help yourself.
It’s because I love them, that I shoot. And it’s because I love the art of photographing people in place, that I’m driven to risk gathering these images. And finally, of photographing place, in the context of people, that draws me further in…
But this camera, that’s taken me around the world a couple of times, and lasted for at least a couple of years, is now…
dead.
And no, I don’t believe that I was cursed in losing my camera. Just trying to get too close in a crazily chaotic and lively scene — seen.
heading to Paris, soon…
tsg | casablanca | morocco
Thanks, giving
Happy Thanksgiving!
Sometime back, in October, there was a group of wild turkeys, that came to visit me. And while they are normally very reticent about being close to people, these were friendly.

I called to them, they came, and stayed for some bread.
They gathered just up from my house, next to an installation I call Manjushri. This is a shrine — it’s an old stump of a snag that actually collapsed on my house. After the tree fell on my house, I was thankful that it (my house) was still there, so I made a kind of shrine out of the stump, remembering. There are a collection of Bhutanese Manjushri wooden swords of knowledge gathered on the shrine. And you find these in the high mountains, on the grounds around prayer flag sites and pavilions, in Bhutan http://tim.girvin.com/Entries/353.
Around the turkeys, you can see the tips, pointing like arrows, upwards from the stump shrine. In the mountains of Bhutan, these are capping points on the top of prayer staffs that hold the flags of prayer — once they fall, you can pick up the Manjushri swords, made of wood and painted…


I’m thank full, for that visit.

Happiest thanks, giving.
tsg | marrakech @ the riyad al moussika | morocco
A love of patterning (1)
Marrakech –
The realm of Islam, in beauty:
In the love of God, it is permitted to celebrate this presence, but not in idolatrous sculpture-making or craven images. Therefore, the wonderment, you can find in beauty — patterning — in the making of places and experiences that shows a love of God, and of beautiful things, represented in references like these — la geometria divina:















tsg | the later evening, the medina quarter, marrakech, morocco
“There is a saying or hadith, “God is beautiful and He loves beauty.” Beauty in the Islamic sense is, however, not beauty in the modern sense. Titus Burckhardt http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Titus_Burckhardt, a scholar of Islam and the sacred arts who was once adviser to the Unesco on the preservation of the Islamic city of Fez, says: “Art to the Muslim is a ‘proof of the Divine existence’ only to the extent that it is beautiful, without showing the marks of subjective, individualistic inspiration. Its beauty must be impersonal like that of the starry sky.” Such a statement may not sit comfortably in the modern mindset’s “art is for art’s sake” where the genius of an artist relies on individual imagination and “originality.”
Instead, Islamic art is directed toward the experience of Divine Unity in multiplicity and multiplicity in Divine Unity. One gets a sense of this art in Burckhardt’s words – “the entirety of plastic arts in Islam [as] essentially the projection into the visual order, of certain aspects or dimensions of Divine Unity.” (Patricia Ma. Araneta | Newsbreak)
REFERENCES:
http://www.salaam.co.uk/themeofthemonth/march02
http://www.exoticindiaart.com/article/islam/
http://www.salaam.co.uk/themeofthemonth/march02
http://kyotoreview.cseas.kyoto-u.ac.jp/issue/issue4
A Love of Wild Trees (8/10)
A Love of Wild Trees

Contemplating the tree of the world…
And this is the seventh in a series, from http://tim.girvin.com/Entries/index.php.
Looking skyward,
stars hang in the balance,
branched — bound
in light, spanning —
circling the mooned night.
I saw this and imagined that: light — starbound in the branches of trees.
There is beauty to be found in the mystery of the trees. And there are many that have written me back, reflecting on the character of their experience — with, and in, trees. To each, their own.
In walking in them, being with them, we are drawn back to the heart of something that brings us back to our beginnings, in the center of nature, awash with oxygen, scent of fertility, the lush green light, the sound of rustling, the quivering life of birds that gambol the broad reach of them.
The poet Mary Oliver [Thirst] shares:
When I Am Among the Trees
When I am among the trees,
especially the willows and the honey locust,
equally the beech, the oaks and the pines,
they give off such hints of gladness,
I would almost say that they save me, and daily.
I am so distant from the hope of myself,
in which I have goodness, and discernment,
and never hurry through the world
but walk slowly, and bow often.
Around me the trees stir in their leaves
and call out, “Stay awhile.”
The light flows from their branches.
And they call again, “It’s simple,” they say,
“and you too have come
into the world to do this, to go easy, to be filled
with light, and to shine.”
When I contemplate that, I meditate on the ancient conceptions — the archetypes — of trees. And in photographing this last week (above), a seasonally lit tree in NYC, shooting through, to the full moon encased above, I think about their symbolism. The tree that holds up the world.
This idea is about a symbolic vision of the world that is held together, in the layers of experience, between the realm beneath — the underworld; the platter of the earth — the middle earth; and finally, the mantle above — the sky, the mantle of heaven.
This concept expresses the layering of meaning of what we see, and what might lie beneath: the symbolic world. Symbol is a word that is about 1800 years old. Probably older…
Going backwards in time, exploring the etymology, the etymon– the true meaning; it goes like this: circa 1434, it was a “creed, summary, religious belief,” from Late Latin, symbolum “creed, token, mark,” from Greek — symbolon as a “token, watchword” (applied around 250 by Cyprian of Carthage to the Apostles’ Creed, on the notion of the “mark” that distinguishes — in a symbolic device — Christians from pagans), from syn- “together” + stem of ballein “to throw.” The sense in the evolution of its use is “throwing things together” to “contrasting” to “comparing” to the framing of a “token used in comparisons to determine if something is genuine.” Hence, the “outward sign” of something. The meaning “something which stands for something else” first recorded 1590 (in “Faerie Queene”). Symbolic, as a reference in use, is attested from 1680.
So it’s an old word. The idea is about a gathering, a link, a connection, a thread. And that symbolism is in the heart of the tree in the imaginings of humankind.

The tree of the world is called: Yggdrasill, Axis Mundis, World Tree, Cosmic Pillar, Center of the World.
In one of my earlier notes, I’d referenced drawing this concept for my father’s office (he, too, being a lover of trees) in 1979. This was Yggdrasill, hand-drawn and silkscreened on in a grouping of 4 panels, two by four foot Lexan:

This idea is ubiquitous. It’s not merely something that links to specific parts, peoples, or forms of spirituality of the world consciousness, but rather something that is found, literally, everywhere.
These, and more.

The Nordic World Ash: Yggdrasill

The Mahameru temple site, Bali, tree of the world, Indonesia

The world pillar symbolized: Kang Rinpoche, Mount Kailas, Tibet

The Celtic World Oak, the tree of answers: quercus

The Aztec World Tree of Life

The Tree of Life of the Egyptians

The Assyrian Tree of Life

The Christian Tree of Life

The Tree of Life, Wat Xiang Tong, Luang Prabang, Laos
I believe that the concept of the tree, as a symbolic archetype, captures the spirit of enclosure and giving; it is about protection and nourishment, it is shade, housing, temple. It is a teacher of patterning, of strength, of roots and stability in placemaking. And, in a way, it is likely the reasoning for why, and how, we can come to even creating place for ourselves.
The architectural theorist and designer, Juhani Pallasmaa: “the tree … is also one of mankind’s most common and meaningful symbols - take the Cosmic Tree, the Tree of Life, the Tree of Fertility, the Tree of Knowledge, the Tree of the Soul, the Tree of History and the Sacrificial Tree. These diverse associations are hidden in the shape of the tree and even today add dimension to our relations with wood. The tree is man’s shape and we feel it our equal”.
Story told: beauty unfold: meaning bold.
tsg | nyc
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References:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Axis_mundi
http://www.mexicolore.co.uk/index.php?one=azt&two=sto&tab=two&id=332
http://blog.baliwww.com/glossary/170/
http://www.unspecial.org/UNS640/t47.html
Cairns
Sometimes, the work of the weekend is complex enough, with writing, drawing and research — prepping and creating projects — that there’s no time for anything else.

But, being on the island this weekend, I’d found that a remarkably balanced cairn — one that lasted literally for years, amidst the rain, storms and wild winds had fallen. This cairn was the Wanderer cairn — but in celebration of that; and as an opening memorial to my youngest brother, Matt Girvin. That morning that my father called with the news of his loss — I was standing outside, next to that standing stone. The later installation, the balanced arrangement shown above, I made with Dawn Clark.

Sometime during the storms of the last week that exquisitely balanced stone fell. And split. Shown, above…
So we wandered again to the beach below, looking for the right stone, to array yet again. There were other arrangements:


We did find one, hauling it from the beach in a canvas bag, climbing the cliffs to get back to the foundation stone, and balancing it, cleft to cleft, found home and true.

And the new installation, set — perhaps —

for more years of guarding the Wanderer spirit…

Wander on, Wanderer…

Tim Girvin | Decatur Island
A Love of Wild Trees (7/10)
Friends have responded with imagery and stories.
And ideas.
Paul Stamets with the CBS News

Photo: Dusty Yao
CBS News (Discovery and Sunday Morning News) came out and spent the day with me filming. We took them into the mountains and found the rare Agarikon: Fomitopsis officinalis.
Dusty took this photo of them filming me in the Old Growth forest. there is a Fomitopsis officinalis in the background, and I see a distinct face on the tree to the left.
Seems appropriate for Halloween !
Dawn Clark, AIA LEED AP
tree lover

gorgeous set of images…
I love these places — there’s no place more spiritually fulfilling…
wow – cool! I’ve got some images of trees with eyes, too..
here are some others, more toward the spiritual place..
tree-ferns of bali

firs of the cascades

bamboo forest of kyoto

moss tree forest of chele la pass Bhutan

too many more…hundreds – I’m working on one blog – trees + architecture
it seems that all spiritual architecture is just an attempt at replicating what the trees create – their light-filtering canopies, enveloping structures, deep-earth-wood scented floors.
Chie Masuyama, Creative Director, Girvin | Seattle (a co-traveler to the temple compound forest outside Tokyo)

Pam Perry, world traveler and blogger:
Thanks Tim for following along on my adventure. I’m grateful for every
beautiful minute along the path. I feel so ALIVE.
I looked at your diary and love your observations on trees. I have a
particular favorite one in Costa Rica that is believed to be nearly
5,000 years old. I sat in the bellows of that tree and pondered the
many ways it had been supporting the people of that land for so many
years. I have a photo, but unfortunately don’t have access to it right
now. It’s one of the most spiritual places - sitting amid that tree -
that I’ve ever been.
Stuart Balcomb | Transcendent musician and composer
In 1973 I spent the summer with my then-father-in-law in La Push, Wa., commercial fishing for salmon. My sister joined me for a few days, and one night we went deep into the rain forest, lay on our backs, and gazed upward at the stars that were barely visible through the tops of the trees. It was perhaps the most comfortable “bed” I’ve ever laid on. What impressed me the most was the sound, or lack of, in that majestic forest. The silence had a bigness that came from the cosmos, as if the vacuum contained the faint echoes of every sound ever emitted. I was also very aware of the roots that extended downward below my back, perhaps as far down as the trees went up. For that brief but endless moment my body felt the curvature of the earth. I was being pushed through space toward the galaxies above, and I was truly a space traveler.
Written from Lima, Peru
Cecile Thomas | Creative Director: Silverstein-Thomas-Rice
I love trees, I seek them out on my journeys. There is deep comfort in aligning one’s spine to their spine.
On my way to Portugal with Bill Thompson next to me. Will look at trees and think of you.
A Love of Wild Trees (6/10)
Being in the place of trees…
And this is the seventh in a series, from http://tim.girvin.com/Entries/index.php.

When I contemplate the place of the tree in my heart, I go there in my mind. And I go back to many forests, in many parts of the planet, that take me back to where it began, that connectedness, in the center of me — to the forest: the love of wild trees.
I hold that experience in my body and soul wholly — the scent, the taste, the hearing, the touch, the sight. It is reaching to me fully.
I wonder about you, what’s your sense of your story in the place — made — in forest? What images do you have to share — for this story?
Sacred grove compound, buddhist complex, japan.

Silence, snow, aspen.

cloud, prayer flag forest — lolo pass, bhutan

mist forest, mount merapi, java

sunrise, ponderosa, idaho

temple forest pathway, bali, indonesia

fall, fallen, san juan county

forest ascent, the himalayas

To each of these places, and surely many others that you’ve experienced — each, your own story — there is a recounting of the power of the surround, the atmosphere of the forest. Whether darkly ancient, light and newly founded, sparse and wildswept mountainous, pine formed or leafy broad, rich and green or forlornly barren as winter forests — each has a place in the mind, and in experience — that will never be forgotten.
What about you? What mind fullness, what forest memory do you hold?
tsg | decatur island
A Love of Wild Trees (5/10)
The oldest souls in the world…
And this is the fifth in a series, from http://tim.girvin.com/Entries/index.php.
Being a walker, and a runner, I like to study trees wherever I go. And I look for old trees.
I look at them from a number of perspectives. How healthy are they? What kind of leaves do they have, what about the bark, where do their roots go? And this is something about how to sense the age of a tree. Looking at a tree, studying their time on the planet — there is the scale of the leaves — the profusion of their arrangement — how do they fill out space, creating place? As a variation in considerations, what is the mass of the foliage — as a tree ages, it increasingly reaches out, filling a volume in responding to the movement of the Sun. Studying the trunk, the size of it, is another clue to understanding age. Old trees are bigger — their trunks are larger — and looking down, studying how they have impacted, literally, the earth, you can see more about their balance. How are they “holding” the earth, how do they embrace it?
Being in NYC, there’s a tree there in Central Park, north of the reservoir, that’s the oldest tree in New York. The London Planetree. It’s a great tree for urban living, it survives city life — like the American Sycamore or the Western Planetree. This is, as well, the tallest tree in NYC. It is planted all over Brooklyn.

In San Francisco, the oldest trees are north of the city, in the Muir Woods, the redwood groves. Yet further out, in the White Mountain Range, over Tioga Pass, lie groves of trees that are far older. There is Methuselah (estimated germination 2832 BC), a Great Basin Bristlecone Pine (Pinus longaeva) which was 4,789 years old when sampled in 1957 by Schulman and Harlan, tree scientists and dendrochronologists studying tree age for insights. It is the oldest known non-clonal organism (a genet, or genetically individual) still alive, at the age of about 4,839 years old.

The Methuselah Grove in the Inyo Forest
There are others that have been cherished, and known, for generations. The Castagno dei Cento Cavalli, from Sicily, at 4,000 years of age,

the Sarv-e-Abarkooh, the Zoroastrian Sarv — a Cypress from Abarkooh, Iran. the Llangernyw Yew of Wales, below, aged 4000 years.

Still, this past year, the oldest living thing, a tree, has been found on the planet.
Scientists discovered the 13 foot tall (4 meter tall) spruce growing at an altitude of 2,985 feet (910 meters) on Fulu Mountain but it is thought its roots actually sprouted just after the end of the last ice age, nearly 10,000 years ago, and the lone survivor has been cloning itself ever since.

Leif Kullmann photo
These trees were found perched high on a mountainous region, the Dalarna province, where they were protected from logging and intrusion — but tempered by hundreds of years of harsh weather conditions, bridged between Norway and Sweden.
The discovery showed trees of 375, 5,660, 9,000 and 9,550 years old and everything displayed clear signs that they have the same genetic makeup as the trees above them. Since spruce trees can multiply with root penetrating braches, they can produce exact copies, or clones.
The tree now growing above the finding place and the wood pieces dating 9,550 years have the same genetic material. The actual has been tested by carbon-14 dating at a laboratory in Miami, Florida, USA.
The old ones, contemplated:
The spirit of the old trees is what they bring to us, what experiences have passed in the movement of the planet and their watching presence, as our lives come and go. That turning is a meditation. As the leaves turn, so do ours, in the momentum of time. So in my experience, looking at trees, the spirit that lies within them, the young ones, the old ones — it’s about that contemplation of temporal beauty.
Looking at trees, especially the old ones, the silent meditation is on my movement, my place — in the passing of things — knowing that, as I go on, they too, go on.
And doing that, what am I looking at, what am I looking for, is the study of beauty in emergence.
New York City Trees: http://forestry.about.com/od/forestryphotofeatures/ss/northpark_trees_8.htm
The Methuselah Grove: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Methuselah_tree
The Pando Grove at 1,000,000 years: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pando_(tree)
Life is short, savor:
http://theos.in/natural-world/oldest-tree-2/
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2008/04/080414-oldest-tree.html
A Love of Wild Trees (4/10)
Drawing trees…
And this is the fourth in a series, from http://tim.girvin.com/Entries/index.php.

There is the gesture — the drawing in place — of how trees fill up the space, and the place, in which they live.
In looking at the patterning of the tree, have you noticed how the green fills the place of their being? What I mean is that the green of the tree somehow “knows” how to fill the space of their “being”. The very existence of the place fills out the volume of how — and where — they live.
Studying the tree, you can see how it fills up the presence that it holds — looking at the openings that surround a tree, it reaches out, gathers the light, and holds that energy in building out the richness of the foliage — its living growth in the space. Green goes. And grows.

And speaking of gestures, my exploration of trees has been about drawing them — in dozens of books, journals, over time.

But in some of them, the drawing is less about exploring the idea of the space that they hold, but about the space that they do not.

In classical Chinese and Japanese painting, the character of the rendering — the spirit of it — is about drawing with the strokes of the brush in the character of something that is not there. It’s less about the black-inked delineations of the sumi-yeh, drawn stroke, it’s about the white that shows more — the paper that shows the presence of the object.

It’s about drawing what’s not there, by drawing what’s there — and leaving the rest, to imagining.




When I look at anything. I look for what’s there.

And what’s not. And draw the space in between.

Do you draw what you see, or what you don’t — and merely imagine?
tsg | decatur island
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